This Mystical Life

Other Visions with Audio

Below is a collection of some of my visions and mystical experiences that stand alone and don’t belong to a specific themed category as on other pages. Each vision offers the option of reading it or listening. Click the "+" symbol to read the transcript, or press the "play" button to listen to an audio recording. A video option will be added soon. I hope these visions may inspire your own spiritual journey.

RECEIVING THE BOOK OF LOVE

Grail image from The Book of Symbols: Reflections on Archetypal Images.

‘This is the Book of Love, inscribed on your heart, written in the ink of the blood of Christ.’

  • Morning sit 14th July 2024

    I began my morning sit by invoking the holy name of Mechthild of Magdeburg. Very quickly I felt her sacred presence with me. Then she showed me a great book, with golden covers encrusted with jewels. I intuitively knew it as The Book of Love. She said to me,

    ‘This is the Book of Love inscribed on your heart, written in the ink of the blood of Christ. You too must inscribe the Book of Love entrusted to you, and share it with those who long for the love of God. The Book of Love was first inscribed on the heart and in the womb of her majesty Mary Magdalene. Each successive generation receives The Book of Love afresh so that it can be passed down the generations until there are no more people to receive it…. The jewels on the cover of the book are the gifts of heaven … jewels of the earth are only glass by comparison….’

    Then Mechthild opened the book and I saw flames leap out and knew they were the flames of the fire of love. There were no pages, no words, only the fire of love burning brightly. Then Mechthild continued, she said,

    ‘You are the daughter of God, beloved of the Sacred Heart. You must write the book of love with the ink of the blood of Christ onto the parchment of your heart.’

    I felt so much fiery sublime love – I cannot begin to capture it in words. Then I asked Mechthild if she would bring Jesus to me, for my pure joy. She turned around and Jesus was her other half, the other side of her, they were two sides of one being. Jesus then spoke to me with great tenderness. He said,

    ‘This book of Love I entrusted to Mechthild, and she now entrusts it to you.’ Fire exploded in my body. Then he repeated that, the jewels on the cover are the gifts of heaven and that earthly jewels are only glass in comparison. He repeated that The Book of Love is rewritten in each generation. That I am to transcribe the fire of love that burns in my heart into the Book of Love and share it with the world. I was given to understand that from Mother Magdalene down to our time – the Book of Love has been carried and transmitted from one sacred heart to another.

    Then Christ said, ‘My words of love are a fire that burns in eternity – the Word which is love lives beyond and before all created life …. You carry this fire in your heart. This is the chalice you are – a cup bearer of the fire of love. Let the fire of my love burn in you – inscribe it onto the pages of your books in the ink of my blood and let the fire continue to burn for generations to come.’

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THE WAY OF FIRE

‘I have made you the fire of my love on earth.’

  • Words from Christ in a morning sit.

    'I fashioned you from fire. Conceived and shaped you in fire. Then I laboured and birthed you as fire from the Fire of my love.

    You are nurtured by fire. Fed with fire. Matured in fire. To be fire.

    Become the fire of love in my fire of love. Burn in me as I burn in you. Beloved of my Sacred Heart, my love blazes in your sacred heart.

    I live in your sacred heart and you live in mine. There is one heart. You are my heart, my love, my beloved daughter.

    I love you with the burning love of my Sacred Heart. Let me burn in you and let all see the flames of our love burning like the rising sun.

    Let the fire of my love flood you and consume you so nothing of you remains but Who I Am.

    I AM Fire

    I AM Love

    I have made you the fire of my love on earth. Let the flames of my love burn brightly on the pages of your books. Let my love burn into the hearts of whoever will read of my love.

    Burn with your love for me and let nothing not be burned by your love. Let all be burned in the fire of our love so nothing remains but flames of love.’

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CALLING TO THE SACRED DEER WOMEN

Croagh Patrick. Summer 2024

‘I open my mouth to speak and my voice sounds like thunder – a mighty roar of nature unleashed in me.

  • Morning sit. 7th MARCH 2024

    With my inner seeing, I see myself as a priestess. I’m standing on the holy mountain of Croagh Patrick overlooking Clew Bay and I am holding a chalice in my hands. I feel fire burning in my heart as passion and love. I feel full of vigour, energy, and drive. I see Fiadh Bán (the White Deer) is standing beside me as grace, gentleness, and peace. Then I see a flood of light flowing into me through my crown chakra. I recognise it as the river of life and I see the light is made up of thousands of golden butterflies. They’re flowing into me and through me, flowing out from my vulva into mother earth and bringing me on a visionary journey.

    I’m also holding my new drum – beating the rhythm of healing medicine; calling to the sacred Deer Women, calling all of us to open to our own healing and to bring our medicine forward.  

    Then I open my mouth to speak and my voice comes out like thunder as my truth rolls like a volcanic eruption out of me and the sounds ring across the mountains, the valleys, and all the way out to the Atlantic Ocean. The whole universe joins in my song, happy at last to hear my tune, my truth, my voice, mo guth naofa. This song which has been silent in me for millennia sings, shouts, rejoices to be released at last and freed to sing once more in the world.

    I see also the many symbols which have revealed themselves to me over the years, the rose, the pentangle, the chalice, and many others constellated around me like stars – a beautiful pattern of symbols hanging in the air above and around me – as my unique constellation in life.

    I see this beautiful pattern reflected in the sunlight, dancing on the waves, on the water of the flowing river, in the stones beneath my feet – in the stars above in the sky – all over the world. This pattern of who I am – a warrior queen of truth – singing, roaring, shouting, my voice like a waterfall tumbling over a cliff – a mighty roar of nature unleashed in me – bellowing out my song – that the universe needs me to sing to add to the chorus of life. If I won’t sing my song then the part of life that I carry is silent, sick and ailing. I must sing my truth from the mountain top of my life – as the waterfall, as thunder, as lightning, and it doesn’t matter  who if anyone ever hears  - I sing for myself and for Life, for the greatness of creation – for the beauty of the rising sun, for the powerful solidity of this mountain where I stand – for the wonder of Clew Bay – the majesty of nature.

    I join in at the elemental level of who I am in Life – not who I am in a sick culture that doesn’t recognise truth and doesn’t care about true selves. I sing for the mountain, the ocean, the sun, the river, the stones, the water, the birds, the elements, for nature – for all of creation. I sing with God and for God. I sing with the Spirit world – with all who have lived and who are yet to live. I sing for life, for Love, for joy, for peace, for the hardships we endure, for peace on earth. I sing my song, my truth, my fire, my power.

    Now, I let the blood-red contents of my cup spill out and pour down the mountain as a river of roses tumbling and glistening in the sunlight. I pour out my cup – I give away all that I have and all that I am – because that’s part of my truth and the medicine I have to offer - to share everything that has been given to me to share.

    So, in ending I say: This is my heart, I give it to you. This is my voice poured out for you.

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DIVINE UNION

‘I felt Jesus come to me in a blaze of fire.’ -from Light on Fire: Waking Up to Divine Love

  • Excerpt from chapter 5, Light on Fire: Waking Up to Divine Love

    One evening in July, I settled in at my desk to do the meditation. Golden light from the setting sun flooded my study. The Rainbow Meditation felt easeful, and incredibly simple. It involves imagining your in-breath pulling a different colour up into your body through the sole of your left foot, taking it up to the different chakra locations on the body, and then your out-breath takes it out again down through the right foot. There was no explanation as to how colours relate to different parts of the physical, emotional and spiritual body, so I had no preconceptions about what I was working on. I simply breathed in the colours in the sequence listed – in complete innocence and naivety.

    I visualized coloured energy travelling up and down my body for each different chakra colour, and as I did this, I felt powerful energy building inside me. I was quite taken aback. I faced a split-second decision: I knew I could stop this strange experience from developing any further if I wanted to. I could just stand up, walk away, and break the spell, so to speak. But as that thought flashed across my mind, I heard my inner voice saying, I am held by the white light, and I can stay for this. I have no idea how I came to say such a thing, the meaning of which I barely understood – except that I sensed it was completely safe to let the experience continue, and I also knew that I would miss something absolutely amazing if I walked away. So, I went with it – once more surrendering to an experience that lay far beyond my intellectual understanding.

    When I got to the seventh chakra on top of my head, suddenly – without the slightest warning, without any preliminary sign, with nothing to prepare me for it – I felt Jesus come to me in a blaze of fire.

    My head exploded with that same holy fire I had experienced on the pier, and in the park on the summer solstice – only this time, it was absolutely staggering in its intensity and in its holiness. I felt Jesus’ presence as a blaze of energy, as a sacred fire, all around my head. As soon as he came, he said to me, ‘I AM The I AM.’ I heard the words silently in my head with an inner hearing, but they were spoken with phenomenal majesty, as a king speaking to the whole world.

    As I heard them with my mind, I was filled with a feeling of staggering and sublime holiness.

    I knew with absolute certainty, as part and parcel of the experience, that this holy fire I felt blazing in me and all around my head was Jesus. I don’t know how I knew it; I just did. I felt Jesus, but I did not see anything. It was not a physical seeing in any way. It was a feeling-knowing at the level of the higher mind – the supra-rational or the spiritual mind. I could feel the incredible holiness of his presence, and his intimate closeness to me. His light surrounded me, and I was utterly absorbed into the experience. Nothing I could ever see with my physical eyes could come close to the beauty, the power, and the profundity of this inner experience and this inner knowing.

    Then I heard myself spontaneously begin to chant inside my head, saying, I am in love, with love I am. I had never heard such a sentence before. My inner voice repeated it many times. I was enraptured and lost all sense of my own being, my own body, and the room I was in. The whole world had faded from my awareness to the point of obliteration as I was drawn completely into this joyous experience of Jesus. I was consumed by his holy fire, and I became fire too. All I could do was live the enormity and the intensity of what was happening to me.

    Then the energy of Jesus’ fire, his spirit, flowed into me, and my fire flowed into his fire. I’ll try to explain this with an image of two fountains of water: one bigger (Jesus), one smaller (me), beside each other, taking turns cascading our flow of water in and out of each other in a figure-of-eight, like a vertical infinity symbol. We flowed into each other several times in a beautiful, seamless dance of flowing fire. It was utterly blissful. I was ecstatic. Spiritual ecstasy is something that mystics have described since the very beginning. We often see them depicted in holy rapture in art. That is what I was experiencing.

    Throughout it all, the holy fire blazed in my head, and on every new in-breath, I felt a fresh wave of fire come pouring into me through the top of my head. I was in awe at what was happening, for the blessing and the sacredness of being visited by Jesus. It was a happiness beyond anything that could ever be experienced in ordinary life. I wanted with all of my heart and soul to give myself to Jesus. The ecstasy lasted about three or four minutes, and as it ended, all I could think to do was to say, ‘I offer myself to you. I am yours to do with me what you will. I am the handmaid of the Lord. I will do your will.’ I was burning alive with spiritual fire, and even now, as I am typing these lines, my head is burning again with that same sacred fire.

    Gradually, the fire subsided and I no longer felt Jesus to be present, but I continued in the meditative state, awestruck. When the meditation did come to an end, I wrote everything down in my journal, offering my gracious thanks to God for such a stunning and powerful experience. I knew with certainty it had been The I AM with me, around me, in me, crossing over into me, and me crossing into It.

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I BELONG TO THE DEER

Fiadh Bán, Allison Cooke

When I rise from the rock, I rise as a deer.

  • A beautiful morning sit, playing my new bodhrán that I made in sacred ceremony with Aoife. I call my bodhrán Saoirse, which means Freedom. I offer rose water to her skin to honour her and begin thrumming my own rhythms. I’m feeling so full of joy, and feeling it such a beautiful thing to be playing this sacred instrument and entering sacred space with her. The rhythm helps me to fall into the dreamtime and in my inner seeing I see myself back beside Ballymeeny river in County Sligo

    I see myself once more seated on the prayer rock underneath the waterfall in the sacred wood and I am praying into the sheer beauty of the place. Then I see myself rise, and when I do, I rise very unexpectedly as a Deer. I then see a herd of beautiful Deer descending on both sides of the river, clambering down the riverbanks. The waterfall is tumbling over the ravine, splashing its waters into the bright river as the Deer make their way down the hill on either side. Then I realise that I have only ever engaged with the White Deer, an fiadh bán, as a solitary deer, whereas in fact she belongs to a herd, a community, and this herd is her community. It’s beautiful to see so many Deer descending and to realise I am one of them. I have the strongest feeling of having shapeshifted into a Deer. And then I begin to move with them.

    Then, on the other side of the river, one majestic Deer steps forward. He has magnificent antlers, and clearly he is the king. He is looking over to our side of the river for his queen. Slowly, I become aware that he is looking at me. That I am to be his queen. I’m shocked, and also in awe. I resist being chosen as his queen. Who am I? But then I remember I am in the Dreamtime and I accept that something quite natural is happening. My Deer mother is standing beside me, and she’s encouraging me. Finally, I accept this offer from the king of the Deer. When he knows that I will accept, he walks purposefully right out into the middle of the river and waits. Then, slowly, I too walk into the river and meet him in the middle. I bow before him. We meet, we mate, we merge. We are one, although two.

    Then the entire herd pours into the river on both sides and joins us in celebration. Together we face the waterfall, jubilant. All of us begin to sing, to cry, and to shout into the rushing water. And as I shout and cry my Deer cry I know that at last, I am releasing my true voice.

    All along, I have been playing my drum. The drum feels different now, feels more alive. My drumming is free, easy, and beautiful to me. I am full of joy and of wonder and gratitude. I belong to this community. I have found my community, the sacred Deer, Fianna Naofa na h-Éireann, The Sacred Deer of Ireland. I drum myself back to this world in gratitude.

    Later on it dawns on me that what I saw and experienced was the marriage of my masculine and feminine. I am in awe and full of gratitude.

    The grove where we began the drum making ceremony has been sacred to pilgrims since ancient times and it’s the place where the hermit and healer, St. Farnan, lived in the 5th century.

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YOU TOUCHED MY HEART, I BECAME LOVE.

Sacred mandala by Allison Cooke

‘All this I give you because I love you as my own self.’

  • You touched my soul, I became light

    You touched my heart, I became love

    You touched my mind, I became wise

    You touched my face, I became beautiful.

    It is your light that shines in me

    Your love that loves in me

    Your wisdom that is wise in me, and

    It’s your beauty that makes me beautiful.

    I am full of your beauty

    Your light

    Your wisdom,

    Your love.

    Even though I am the same

    I am utterly changed

    I am no longer myself

    I am you.

    I have become the light that shines in me

    The love that loves in me

    The wisdom that speaks in me and

    The beauty that shines in me.

    You gave your whole self to me and I have given you nothing in return.

    Christ replied,

    ‘Do you count your heart as nothing?  Your soul, your mind, and your face – as nothing?

    You gave all these to me as gifts. I received them in my heart and returned them to you irradiated by my love. Now I live in you; I love in you; I am wise in you; and my beauty shines in you.’

    ‘Your heart is my heart

    Your soul is my soul

    Your mind is my mind

    Your beauty is my beauty.

    All this I give you because I love you as my own self.

    I am you and you are me.’

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