Chalice Visions

‘I have filled your cup with my love. Share my love with those who long for, and are thirsty for my love. Bring the cup of my love to the people and let them drink.’

21st February 2021

With my inner seeing, I see Jesus hanging on the Cross. I see myself at the foot of the Cross and his blood spilling down from his wounds. I catch his flowing blood into the cup of my body, my being, my essence. His blood flowed into the cup of my love and then I saw that from my heart space down, my body had become a golden chalice. I heard Jesus say, ‘You are a chalice of my love in the world. I have filled your cup to overflowing. Carry my love to the world. Share my love with the world.’

A little while later, he said, ‘You must present me to the world as I AM in you – not in your interpretation of me – but in the raw and holy form of who I AM – which is Love.’ … ‘Why will you not share with the world all that I have shared with you?’

That evening as I prayed, I offered my words as flowers – as roses blossoming on the Crown of Thorns. Just as a gardener might offer flowers onto the altar, I offered my words. I heard Jesus speak in my heart, ‘Gather my words into the vase of your love and present them on the altar of my love. I will tend to your flowers with tenderness and care. I will water them with my love as you have watered me with the tears of your love.’ … ‘Catch my blood in your cup – let me fill your chalice with my love and present it to the world in my holy name.’

Then he reminded me of the saying, ‘I AM the Light that darkness cannot overcome.’

16th March 2021

In my morning sit I was determined to ask nothing of Jesus – but begging that he would show me how I can help, how I am to share these visions, given my confusion and seeming ineptitude to do as he asks. There was fire burning in me non-stop. But, in telling Jesus that I asked for nothing for myself, he filled me to overflowing with his holy fire. He said again, ‘I have filled your cup with my blood which is love.’ There was unbelievable spiritual fire burning in my body.

20th March 2021

Morning meditation. I was open to experiencing the gift of feeling the presence of God – or not. Then an inner clarity dawned. That, spiritual transformation is a silent quiet inner transformation of one’s being and essence so that a new and sacred awareness grows of the holy connection of all that exists in an intelligent unfolding that we call life.

Then I began to meditate and I heard Jesus say, ‘Listen to me.’ I listened into the silence.

Then I prayed to Jesus, saying ‘Hold me in your heart.’ And as I prayed these words, it happened - as it often happens - that simultaneously I heard Jesus making the same prayer to me, and so I heard him say, ‘Hold me in your heart.’

Then he spoke again in my heart, saying, ‘Hold me in your heart and carry me to the world. Share me with the world …. Share me with the world as I share you with the world.’ I was feeling the holiness of all that I write for Jesus and understanding that he will place this writing into the hands of those he wishes to read it. I was also hearing him say, ‘I will make your light shine in my holy name.’ Falling into humble awe … and saying, If this is true, there is nothing but humble awe in my heart. If it be your will Jesus, my beloved father.

Then Jesus spoke again. He said, ‘Carry me to the world in your holy words.’ I was feeling unspeakable awe at all that was unfolding. Afterwards, as I was writing the experience in my journal, I also wrote about the confusion that was in my mind. I wrote, ‘I feel I’m just not getting it – I’m not getting what Jesus wants me to do.’  And as I wrote those words, I again heard Jesus speak tenderly in my heart, saying ‘Share me with the world.’

5th April 2021 Easter Monday

On Easter Monday, as I sat in meditation, I heard, ‘I have filled your cup with my blood – share it with the world. I have made a holy chalice of your body and filled it with my blood that others may drink my blood from you and become my light in the world.’

Such sacred holiness to see myself at the foot of the Cross. Jesus’ blood pouring into me as a blessing and an anointing. ‘I have made of you a chalice of my blood; when I say, “Take and drink” I mean that my people will drink me from your cup.’

I felt it all as a most holy transmission of love, a holy anointing. Then hearing, ‘Become a chalice of my blood for the world.’

In awe, I prayed – ‘Jesus, let your blood run in my veins.’ He answered, ‘Whose blood but mine runs in your veins? I created you out of my own self – my blood alone runs in your veins.’ Fire, Fire, Fire exploding in my body.  

Sunday 18th April 2021 Easter Time

‘Re-form my Church.’

Unspeakable holiness. I heard Jesus say, ‘I have given my whole self to you to carry me to the world.’ … ‘I have given my whole self to you, share me with the world.’

One day around Pentecost,  I was sitting to meditate and resisting every inclination to move towards a mystical experience. I was desiring not to desire a moment of union. Desiring to be nothing but stillness. Yet, it was impossible to resist the inflow of holiness. Holy fire was burning spontaneously in my body. I was feeling Jesus, my beloved, with me, in me, all around me. Remembering the Gospel story in which Jesus appears to the apostles in the upper room and charges them to preach. I had a deep sense that I was also in that room. And I sensed that today I am again receiving the same holy instruction. Then I heard, ‘I AM in you. Re-form my church.’ The holiness was close to unbearable or un-containable. Resisting delusion I begged St Teresa of Ávila instantly to be by my side to protect me and let me know if this is truth or delusion. I was feeling utter sacredness. Then I heard Jesus saying: ‘I have given my whole self to you; share me with the world. You are my holy presence in the world. You are to build my new Church of Love. I charge you to begin again, in my name, my holy Church of Love.’ … ‘Carry me to the world.’

9th May 2021

I heard Christ say, ‘Why do you judge yourself by human standards, by the standards of those who are blind and asleep? Why do you not judge yourself by the standards of heaven that you have seen, that I have shown to you? By the standard of my joy in you, my delight in you? By all that I have shown you of the Light? Why do you not judge yourself by my love and by my gifts to you but instead allow yourself to fill with fear because those around you have not yet awakened to my love? Why do you run slower than you can – to keep pace with people who cannot run as fast as you? Why do you hide my light? Why do you fear to speak for my light when you know my light is true? I have filled your treasure chest with the jewels of my love that I ask you to share.’

20th June 2021

My prayer is that I would get myself out of the way of the transmission of God’s love to others through sharing what God shares with me. That God’s love would shine forth into the world, through me, but also without me. This is my deep prayer.

Christ, I give you my heart that it may be a worthy receptacle of your love;

I give you my body that it may be a worthy receptacle of your love;

I give you my mind and my soul that they may be worthy receptacles of your love;

I give you who I am that I may be worthy of receiving your love.

Fire.

Then I was seeing my soul as a chalice of white light above my head; my body was its stem. I was seeing the holy crown of thorns resting on the rim of the chalice, and pouring its love, as a  golden river of light, into my chalice, into my being. Seeing also my interior fully lit with this light and knowing this is the light of Christ who lives in me. My inner words were that, ‘The light of Christ shines in me; the light of Christ is in me; I am the light of Christ.’ Fire.

Awe-filled remembering that this was the very first holy message I received in 2015 when I heard Christ say ‘I am the I AM. The light of Christ shines in this house.’

Then Jesus said: ‘There is a place for everyone in my heart – all that is needed is that they would claim it.’

12th November 2021

Evening sit. In ecstasy for nearly the entire hour. The most sublime mystical conversation with my beloved Jesus. I actually cannot recall any of the first half except that it was possibly holier than any previous communion with my beloved Jesus. The central message was, ‘Share my love with the world.’

For the second half, I asked Jesus to look with me into the reliquary where he laid down my gifts in the beginning. Fire Fire Fire. I looked in and saw a golden chalice gleaming with golden light. It was quite small and I was looking down on it so I could see into its cup. Jesus said, ‘Behind the wooden doors of your heart is my light.’ I was exploding with rapture and joy. Jesus said, ‘You are the key to the tabernacle of my love; you are the dove of peace; you are my butterfly of light; and you are the chalice of my love.’ Fire!!!! He said, ‘You are the token of my love, my keepsake growing in the womb of my beloved Magdalene.’ Ecstasy.

Then he said, ‘I was thirsty and you gave me a drink. Now you are thirsty and I give you the cup of my love to drink.’ Blazing fire burning in my body. ‘You are the cup of my love. Share my love with the world.’  

Towards the end, I wondered would I ever be able to capture in my journal the intensity and the holiness of all that had transpired. Jesus said, ‘Some visions are too holy to record…. There are no words and no alphabet capable of describing what you are experiencing. You must share me with the world by being my love.’ Most holy. Most holy. Most holy. I was transfixed by the intensity and the joy that flooded my body, my mind, my heart, and soul.

Blessed be God on high and Mother Earth beneath our feet. To experience this sublime ecstasy defies explanation and even description. I am your most willing servant-daughter … do with me as you will.

7th May 2024

Light enters the cup,

It becomes water.

The water turns to wine,

The wine to blood,

The blood is love.

21st November 2024

‘The chalice that bears the rose is the chalice of my love.’